Thursday, May 20, 2010

Day Off

I am taking the day off from preparing the house for packout. I am tired, and a bit depressed. It is no secret that Germany has not been my dream post, sorry Germany you are lovely but not for me, and I am ready to leave. BUT I hate change. I find it stressful. I hate it almost as much as I hate flying. This summer promises a lot of both. Months of living out of a suitcase. Months before we are settled into our new house in a new country. Months before we even see the house that will be ours. Months before the new house will feel like home. *SIGH*

Today I am just going to enjoy today, for tomorrow I shall clean. Today I am going to do the laundry because I am out of clean clothes, but that is the ONLY useful thing I am going to do. Today I am going to indulge my passion for food and not think about diets. Today I am going to cook because I enjoy it and because I love my pots and pans. Today I am going to read because I have already dealt with the bookshelves so I can enjoy my books without guilt. Today is going to be a day for me because I am worth it.

Menu for dinner:
Ricotta Gnocchi with Light Tomato Sauce
Romaine Salad
Home made bread with real butter
Creme Brulee

Now I am going to go make myself a cup of cappuccino and start cooking.


Monica said...

okay. tears in my eyes. you are so worth it, girl. love, love, love your post and love you! :o) big hugs from the big t. and we cannot WAIT to see you and your crew. love y'all. m.

I'll Take Mine... said...

I'm so sorry you are having a 'blah' day. You have been working your a** off packing and sorting and dumping things. The idea of more of the same and living out of suitcases sounds daunting.

And Germany... well, a husband speaking German is enough to put me over the brink, I can't imagine being there. Enjoy your dinner.


Shannon said...

Actually it has been a wonderful day. Last night I had a teary breakdown. After I went and hid in the tub with a drink and a book David cleaned the house so it feels reasonable calm. Today I just gave myself permission to indulge. I have a hard time doing that.

I really truly love food. I love cooking it. I love eating it. In jakarta I indulged in this kind of cooking at least one a week, but I had a maid The wonderful much missed Dwi) that kept the rest of the house from self destructing, and took thy baby on playdates while Mom played in the kitchen. Here I rarely get the chance I am just to busy.

So inspired by Donna (email from the Embassy) I decided that my mental health would be best served by taking the day off. I have cooked a ton, read all the blogs I had gotten behind on, and even gave myself a pedicure. I feel so much better.

As for learning German I wish your husband good luck. The language is impossible. Living here isn't so bad. There is a lot to do but the weather is cold and the German people are...lets just say abrupt. I'm from Texas. We are friendly down there, ya know? I smile at people when I pass them in the park. The look at me like I am nuts. Some one finally explained that going around smiling at people you don't know is rude (presumptuous as it indicates you are friends or at least know each other) and is a sign that perhaps you are a bit retarded. Lovely, just lovely.

Bfiles said...

how great that you took a day for yourself. sounds like it was wonderful. I don't know much about malawi, but hopefully it will be more friendly.

Shannon said...

Malawi is known as the warm heart of Africa. Fingers crossed that is the people not the weather! LOL!

Jill said...

Lucky lucky you! I will admit that I'm jealous as he**. I desperately need a day off!

We have our pack-out in 10 days and I'm beyond stressed... fluctuating internet, in the middle of hiring a new Head of School, trying to organize our house, and doing it all solo as hubby is STILL in DC.

Calgon take me away!

Jill said...

P.S. I TOTALLY understand what it's like to be at a post that to many would seem like a dream... but you just didn't love it as much as you "should". Rock on for admitting it.

Connie said...

One of the things I like about the Middle East, is the people. There is a lot of genuine warmth. Not saying Europeans are unfriendly, it just takes awhile to be accepted. Hopefully Malawi will be more Texas-like. :) Good for you for taking a de-stress day... you'll be twice as productive later! btw... I'd crash your dinner for the salad and fresh bread alone! Although my dinner for tonight is smelling nice... Shepherd's Pie, with lamb and Guiness in the gravy, and fresh strawberries over sweet biscuits for dessert.

A Daring Adventure said...

Oh honey.

Hoping today is/was better.

Your dinner last night has my tummy rumbling. You must be one heckuva cook.

It breaks my heart to hear you had a teary night!

And you don't like flying... that makes 2 of us. I HATE flying. With a passion. I also hate it when James flies anywhere.

hannah said...

It's Friday, time for the weekly State Department Blog RoundUp - and you're on it!

Here is the link:

(If I quoted your text or used your photo(s) and you would rather I had not, please let me know. Please also be sure to check the link(s) that I put up to you, in order to verify that they work properly. If you would rather that I had not referenced you, and/or do not want me to reference you in the future, please also contact me at stateroundup2.0 {at}


Shannon said...

Jill --I am SO over Europe. I think if I was i a different stage of my ife I would probably love it but with 4 kids it is really too expensive for us to do very much. Throw in the cold and the winter where the sun doesn't shine for months I am pretty well done. I would however still come back here for a vacation but I have no desire to live here year round.

Kolbi--More of a competent cook rather than a good cook. I can follow recipes, even complicated ones, but am not good at coming up with my own recipes. Perhaps one day I can take some cooking classes.

Shannon said...

Oh and Jill I hope you get a day off soon. I do not know how you are holding it together. Yikes.